Feeling emo

Right about now I've been home for a little over 24 hours, and already I am feeling emo and a little bad about myself. Emily came over tonight and we talked for 3ish hours, about life and old friends, etc etc. I miss how things used to be, but at the same time, I want to go forward and just skip over this summer. Ah to be back at school with no rules (comparatively- okay seriously... midnight curfew. lame)

I know I should go to bed but I just can't seem to bring myself to that point. Maybe I'll watch a movie or something. I should just read a book.

I am listening to the theme from Schindler's List, and missing BYU and everything. I want to write music too... I want to call a few friends and just make things better. I wish I could just make everyones decisions for them, but then that would take away their agency. I know people make mistakes, but I just wish they would make less of them. It scares me to death for when I have children. They need their freedom, but what if they start making horribly stupid decisions?

SCAAARY. freaking scary.