Living in the Past & Future

I was told by a four year old today

"woah you just burped like a sheep!"

as I was babysitting, and mind you... I WAS attempting to squelch the burp.

Five minutes later, Camille was burping out of control.

what a cutie.





Camille is my friend Malcolm's niece (she has 3 other siblings I was babysitting as well)

and I used to be madly in love with Malcolm. As much as I don't like him anymore, whenever I am around him I end up acting like a complete idiot because that part of me comes out again. Today he came over to do some work for Dr. Scott, (his brother in law) while I was babysitting.. We talked for a while. It was nice, but every time I am around him, I wish I could just go back in time.


Same thing happens with Darci, only a bit different. thats an oxymoron I guess. every time I am around her I start thinking about Allison, because thats the reason we became friends in the first place.

Allison would have turned twenty tomorrow. Its been just over a year since the accident. As I think about this, I want to go back in time, yet again.

She would have been home for the summer, and we would have been hanging out this weekend. Stargazing or watching movies, nothing spectacular, but when I am around Darci I can't help but think of this.










That's Me, Allison and Darci at Prom in '06 I think...



Here's a more recent photo of her and darci


Why do I live in the past and the future but never the present? While I'm in a situation it is lame and boring, but when I look back, it was the most fabulous time ever.

I read a good quote today, we can never get enough of what we do not need. THere is so much in this world that is unnecessary. I should go buy some flowers for Allison's grave tonight. I promised Becca we'd watch Much Ado About Nothing, but I should do this before tomorrow morning.