dieting stinks

okay first of all, i've been really good about writing down what I eat lately. I've been doing it online and stuff, so not too time consuming. But the problem is, because I am so concentrated on watching what I eat, I think about food allll the time. Tonight I went to rachel's house for dinner, convinced that I wouldnt eat any more sugar, but we ended up going and buying rice pudding.

the thing I didnt realize is that (DUH MOMENT) rice pudding has milk. or cream. and lots of it.
So halfway through our conversation with some old friends of rachel and peter's, I start feeling a bit throw uppish. I dont know if i'm lactose intolerant or mildly allergic to milk or dairy or something... but dairy makes me 1. vomit, 2. get sicky, 3. gaseous. yeah, not much fun. So i came home, and I threw up. *note: I am NOT bulimic. the only time i throw up is when I'm REALLY sick or I eat a bunch of dairy

which in all honesty I am not TOO sad about because I shouldn't have eaten it in the first place. and secondly, I feel so much better afterwards.

So here I sit, typing away on my computer again regretting a few choices of the day. I need to stop justifying it and just buckle down. Because that's the only way I'll get the reward I'm working towards