looking back

I hate looking back into the past and seeing my mistakes (or the mistakes of others as the case is tonight) and wanting to go change them. It really really stinks when we mess stuff up seriously.

If I could go back in time, here are a few things I would change.

1. not ever EVER go snowboarding. 1 little day changed 2.5 years already
2. spend more time with my family during high school
3. not waste my time loving someone who 1, wasn't worth my time and 2, made me think they could love me too (aka leading me to think they were going to dump their gf for me.. yeah, look how that one turned out, lovely. NOT)
4. keep a better journal. there are so many things allison and I talked about that I wish I could remember- like deep important things.
5. tried harder to learn dutch and get to know people while I was in Holland


yeah. and i would have been more kind. definitely more kind.



But we cannot dwell in the past can we? nope. most definitely not. and I will move past this.