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What I saw when coming home late one night..??not trying to impress.... there's a story behind this outfit. hahaha
the picture i want at IKEA... i miss this..


I can't exactly describe in too much detail what is going on in my life right now, it is both very personal and very public, very saddening and very happy and right... all at the same time. I have come to recognize the value and comfort a good friend can give, but still feel so alone. I'm waiting for it to pass. Not just waiting, but actively trying to make it pass, and therein may lie my problem... I can't accept what I can't change, but I am trying to make it change. I went to a fireside this evening given by the director of human resources for the entire LDS church. It was really fantastic and so applicable to my life-- and everyone else's as well. I have written like five billion point seven blog posts analyzing and contemplating stuff... I don't mean to bore, but these three things are fantastic, and I'll keep this short. He was talking about choice, and three specific aspects of it.

1. I have the choice to create MY vision of my future.
2. Then I have the choice to fulfill that vision. The speaker studied organizational behavior.. so he put it this way: "all organizations are designed to get the result that they yield." So if you want the future you envision, there is a way and a plan to get there. It takes daily action, and you WILL move towards your most dominant desire.
3. When we make mistakes, we have the choice to repent and then continue to move forward. There is hope.

another thing he said: "I cannot say I want to be the best soccer player I can be without going to practice."
it's a daily thing. change takes time, but if we keep working at it, eventually we can achieve what we ultimately desire the most.

yup.